Thursday, February 16, 2012

Tired

I'm tired. Very, very tired.

There are plenty of logical explanations for this tiredness...my youngest has a cold and is up 3+ times a night, I've not gotten to bed until close to 11 pm. the past 2 nights, I only had a cereal bar for breakfast and my body is revolting due to lack of food...

Although, I think this tiredness while partly is physical is also emotional too. There's something I've been struggling with for a long time. It comes and goes as to how much of a struggle it is (if that makes sense?) I guess how much it consumes my thoughts or affects my emotions. And all this time I have been praying, but I finally talked to a good friend about this struggle. Getting her point of view, finding out if what I'm dealing with is more me or if I have a valid reason to be feeling the way I do. I think though most importantly, just confiding in a good friend.

Our time was good and I'm so thankful we were able to talk and pray together and while the situation isn't resolved, I don't feel "alone" anymore.

So I'm thinking alot of my tiredness is from feeling emotionally drained, but there's a warmness knowing I don't have to stand alone.

I'm thankful today for my dear, sweet friend, and for a loving Father Who is always willing to listen...


I apologize if this doesn't make much sense, it does to me :) and I'm working on some coffee. :)